thingsdarrenlikes asked: You have got rather spectacular breasts, thank you for sharing :D
well basically what happened is she leant it to this hobo right because he’d stolen beth’s virginity and that was the only trade he’d do to give it back, so we decided that we’d go back and steal it from him during the night, but when we did, he’d died, right, so we had to dispose of the body in a skip and i’m currently waiting for a good time to burn the sleeping bag.
ohmigod you wah ek
there’s a lot i’ll reveal on the internet, but not this. it was bad, that’s all you need to know.
Haha, it isn’t really, once you know, you know :’)
they have to make it hard work. you can’t fall in love without fighting for something.
i have this really annoying habit of being really good at making people fall in love with me, it’s a curse, really.
right now, i really really really need to be by myself, for a long time. i don’t want to complicate that with anything. in any other circumstance, though, i’d have to know the person quite well, have a significant bond with them but not enough to have proper feelings for them, and a mutual agreement that it would not go anywhere.
…maybe. not right now, i’m not looking for anything like that right now. but i lost my virginity in such an awful way that if i could do anything for anyone else not to have the same experience as i did, then i would. you always remember your first time. always. and i would not mind at all if i could make somebody’s first time special.
Speaking from experience, i have an ex who was just like that, and if my life depended on it, i would never get back with him, because he just did the same thing over and over again, even after we broke up. But, if, as you say, you believe you’ve both changed, then maybe it could be an idea to try again, just take it slow, slower than you’ve ever taken anything before, so that you don’t get in too deep before you know exactly how you feel and whether he’s changed. So i’d say go for it, just tread very, very carefully.
IHAM JUS SO HAHAPY
you’re not a creep i appreciate it so much :D this made me smile like a loon also :’) because can i just mention, that i actually wouldn’t have done it without the help of this wonderful girl right here ^ it has been the weirdest friendship set up in history, and sometimes it’s worked out absolutely great and we’ve laughed ourselves silly, and sometimes it hasn’t, but we’ve been through the same things and she has been one of the few people to actually make any kind of sense to me, and has said things that have driven me to pull myself out of the monotony. when it comes for being there for me, she’s been an absolute star, and hasn’t given up on me. so sorry for being so much of a sap, and i’m sorry if you think this is weird, but deal with it. i just wanted to say a big thank you! and that i wish the same and more for you m’dear :D
just because the years you’ve had have been the same doesn’t mean the next will be. you never know until you know.
it will be okay, i promise you. if there is anything i have ever learned it is that the bad times pass just like the good ones do. to think, what, 6 months ago, i was ready to end my life, because it had spiralled out of control and i felt like what i was feeling was never going to go away. but instead of ending it, i went over, and i cut the ties that were binding me to the person who had made me feel that way, and i started to re-build my life. it doesn’t happen overnight, no way. it’s taken a full year for me to feel like this again. and it’s not all perfect, i am still struggling with lots of insecurities, and addictions, and guilt. but i think the key to it is, sitting down and thinking about what you actually need, and do it for yourself, not anyone else. if you see no way out, if you are stuck in a rut, then sometimes realising that the hardest thing can be the right thing is the best thing you can do. you also have to evaluate your limits, though. I know that a year ago i could not have been on my own, i just couldn’t do it. So, i did the right thing for me, and i went and found somebody. and that somebody saved my life. but now i know, that if i am ever going to be able to be in a functional relationship again, instead of pulling them apart, i need to figure out who i am, by myself.
You will be fine. Talk to people when you need to talk to people. Curl up with some loud music and don’t talk to anybody when you need to do that. Make plans when you need to keep yourself busy, and make plans for time to yourself when you need to organise the things in your head. Write, no matter how good or bad you may think you are at writing, it’s the best thing for understanding how you are feeling and seeing it all poured out on a page makes a big difference from trying to understand it in your head. Remember that it doesn’t happen overnight, but it will happen, if you make a concious effort to change the way you think about things, and don’t give up at the first, the second, the third or fourth or millionth hurdle. Because at the end of the day, yes, things will get better, but they will always get worse. You ask anybody, they will have their story to tell, but they are still in front of you, telling it. There will be times you hit your rock bottom. There will be times you feel like you can fly. That’s life. But no matter what happens, you get up, dust yourself off, and carry on.